What if I don't?

A friend of mine was reading my blog few months back, in fact last year, and out of the blue she asked me to watch the movie Julie and Julia. I asked her what the movie is about, and she told me it was about how a woman, passionate about cooking, starts a blog and finds life being a lot more worth living and fun. I don’t know why, but it enlightened an instant spark and I went around asking every Tom, Dick and Harry if they had the movie. Not to mention I finally got the movie last night from my friend herself.

I saw the movie and my oh my was my body filled with goosebumps. I am sure I will not do justice to the movie if I read a movie review, and more importantly this is not a movie review. I don’t really know if my friend asked me to see the movie because I wrote quite a few recipes and cooking related posts then, but I actually felt a lot connected to Julie Powell. I am not very happy with where I am now, and how my life is moving on. I miss being with my parents, with my best friend, miss chatting with my sister and in fact miss a lot many things. I love to write, and feel complete, content and happy when I do that, and so the blog. Though I don’t really know how well you all think about it.

The first few months I started a blog, I felt like I was invisible and not very many people saw or heard or read me. And I used to keep whining to my mother day in and day out that my followers list would just  not rise beyond 10. And she asked me if I was writing to become famous or because I loved it. And voila I had my answer. Then all I wasn’t very concerned about increasing my followers list, though I still get very excited when I see one more added in my list. After all you want comments to improve, don’t you?

And now my mother gets very happy when I tell her about my blog. I remember once when I had written a post about how my mother reads my blog, I had got a few comments from shocking friends asked if my mother actually read my blog and that they would rather die if their parents went through their blog. How could I not let my parents read them? They are the reason for it to begin and grow.

I would really really like to thank Priyanka for helping me out with the way my blog looks and in a way helping me gain a lot more followers. We do have personal problems, but when it comes to writing I cannot and will not lie, you are a maestro in it.

Everytime I think of starting something new, I always ALWAYS have the question ‘What if I don’t complete it’ roaming around my head. And most often I do not complete it. For example, I was extremely excited in starting a new year calendar, which I have completed. But I am just too lazy to get it spiral bound and flaunt it on my study table. So nope, I have not completed it! But who knows maybe someday I too might be like Julie Powell, and my answering machine would be filled with a lot more than 64 messages, lol! I will always have my mother as Erik to push me through!

P.S: As of now please pray that I do an ok job of the seminar due tomorrow. I am so very tensed and scared (nothing new though) and I am sure I am going to make a fool out of myself, like always. Now you know what I meant when I was talking about my confidence level!